Mountain Tops

Excuses emerge from the fear of failure. Fear, is not real. Its a situation or something we convince our self to avoid or completely dismantle from our lives. There is an abundant amount of individuals who are scared to fail. Im telling you, snap out of it. Confront the fear thats eating you from within and embrace the outcome of success. 

I use to make excuses for everything. I don't have time; maybe tomorrow; I'm too out of shape; I'm not smart enough; I'm never going to change. Its all bullshit. Honestly being 18 years old and working for a company that is considered one of the best companies in the world, I have had plenty of missed opportunities because of fear. Fear that I might not succeed at the next step or that maybe I'm making the wrong choice. With fear in the frontline, I closed my eyes, took a breath, looking at what was to come and leaped forward at a chance. A chance at a better future, career and way of life. I went on a chance that "IF" I do succeed, it will be one of the greatest accomplishments that I have striven for. I could of made many excuses and settled with the job I had at hand and would of been well off, but I wanted more; I did not let fear dictate my decisions, neither should you. 

Make yourself goals every month. They don't need to be big, or life changing. You could plan a hike, run a mile, hang out with friends, or start yoga. Anything works, just create goals for yourself that will make you feel great about you. Sometimes we need reminders that we can achieve the things we want to set out to do. So when we need to achieve something we must do, we can eliminate the doubt of absolute failure. Make one goal, and follow through on it.

The climb is the hardest part, but the outcome is priceless.

Accept yourself

Let me admit that at some point in our lives we avoided mirrors, felt ugly and unworthy of someone's attention. I was fat, awkward, unpopular and would spend countless nights hiding myself from the world. I remember all the names and discouragement that reigned upon me on a daily basis. The feelings and lingering memories that will forever be embedded in my soul. The breaking point when your own flesh and blood shows no sign of affection, concern or love for the person they put on this earth.

I didn't have many friends, in fact I use to ponder what it would be like to have a genuine friend who truly cared. I was tired of molding and masking myself for everyone who thought they knew what I was feeling, when no one did. When you can't rely on family, friends, and yourself, then what happens next?

I finally stopped avoiding mirrors and stopped bringing myself down. I weighed and stared at the challenge in front of me and accepted it for what it was and haven't stopped since. Growing up as an overweight, afraid and insecure boy has taught me so much more about life than I could ever imagine. Don't give up on the challenge before you, no matter how dark the situation and no matter how far the light is at the end of the tunnel. You will change for a better you, but in reality you won't change at all. Always be true to yourself.

Motivation is the key, and my motivation for life is through failure. Just knowing there is a chance of failure makes me work harder and harder day in and day out. I will not fail, and if I do, I will become stronger. I love myself for accepting who I am no matter what stands in my way. Forward is where I am heading, and theres no stopping me.

The Beginning

I have been through countless battles of fear, hate, insecurity, love, passion, ambition, and willingness. I have trusted and invested so much love, and received an exponential amount of disappointment. Once I have felt like a loss cause. 

I have wondered why I was alive or placed in this universe. I have been overweight, hated, unloved, insecure, misguided, kicked down, and broken on so many levels. With all this negativity throughout my life, I have finally found the light, and pushed through the darkness that had been brought upon others, and created from myself.

This will be the start of a covenant to anyone who chooses to read or seek advice/ guidance. I am here to show you:

You are not going to be afraid.

You are not going to be lost.

You are not a waste of time.

You are not going to be broken.

You are not going to be alone. 

You will instead be embraced as the remarkable person that you are. I will not say it will be easy, because it will be rough. The best part is, you will not be alone.

When asked how he could perform 2 days after being shot: The people who were trying to make this world worse are not taking the day off. Why should I? Light up the darkness.

- BOB MARLEY